I dont wanna be alone

Seriously, i really dont want to be alone for the rest of my life. I’m seventeen years old and i feel like i’ll never ever find someone. And when you’re my age thats not really a good feeling. When I look around I see all these couples, even my little cousin, who’s 14, has a steady boyfriend, they go on dates, they know each others families, and then theres me. I’ve never even BEEN on a date. Ok, i’ve been on ONE date. But that barely counted it was kind of a forced thing. he was cute….though.

My point is that I dont want to be alone forever. I dont want to be old and single. I dont want to have cats and be the only one in my family thats isnt married. Everyone says “It’s ok. You’re still young, you have time.”

I dont want to wait forever. I want to live a little, have experiences. When i’m old I want to look back at my senior year in high school and think about my first love. I want to smile when I think about how in love we were and how i thought i’d end up marrying him.

So far, none of that is happening. I dont see myself happy for a very, very long time. And that makes me so sad.

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